Tuesday, March 10, 2009

Distractions

Today I have been running around trying to do errands and generally catch up with chores. The problem is; one never really "catches up" but rather just gets stuff done that will only reappear again in a few days or weeks.
Laundry, shopping, cooking, yardwork, bills and papers...they are always there, calling from a distant part of the house,"Clean me...iron me...wash me...." This can be hugely distracting when what I REALLY want to do is lock myself up in my studio for days, crank up the music and make a huge art mess.
There is a guilt that remains in the back of my mind that seems to never go away that is similar to the guilt I felt when I dropped my son off at day care every morning before going to work. I felt guilty leaving him there while I was at work and I felt guilty at home when I took off from work. Now I feel guilty when I am in my studio because there is so much stuff to do in the house and when I am doing mundane stuff in the house I feel guilty about wasting my time doing something other than art.
The guilt will probably never completely disappear and the only sembalance of a solution I have found is to limit my time on chores and just let some stuff go. One of my favorite quotes: "A clean house is the sign of a misspent life."
I try.

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